Last night, in honor of Mother's Day, I decided to be "Fun Mom." So when my two oldest girls asked for about the kajbillionth time if they could sleep outside in the playhouse, I thought about it. Reasons for saying "No": school night, it might rain, you'll be scared out there alone, spiders, too cold, you won't sleep well, lightning, bears, boogey men, you are just too little and I need you close where I can check on you and know you are safe and sound at all times!
But "Fun Mom" decided, despite these factors, it was time to say "Yes."
I was then told I am the best mom in the whole wide universe.
Certain the girls would run inside cold and terrified by 9:30, I left porch lights on and doors slightly ajar.
9:30 passed, and certain the girls would wake up cold and terrified by midnight, I sent Caleb out with extra blankets and opened all the back bedroom windows so I could hear their nocturnal screams and run to the rescue.
Midnight passed and I woke up, cold and terrified that I might have slept through shrieks or door pounding. I donned a robe and my glasses and peered out back windows into the darkness. Finding them peacefully asleep still, I returned to bed and dreamed fitfully until morning of outdoor slumber parties gone awry.
At 7:45 the girls ran in, giggling and exhilarated from their peaceful playhouse repose.
And it seems they need me less and less.
Or maybe they begin to need me differently.
Need me to hover less and to trust more. To rule less, and to teach more.
Definitely to love more, and allow them a little more room to grow.
Thanks to my mother, who loved me more, and allowed me room to grow.
Thanks to you women out there who may have slept fitfully a night or two over a child.
A special thanks to you beautiful women in my life who would love more than anything to have a fitful sleep over a child, and haven't had that blessing in your life yet. Thank you for the nurturing and love you give my children, I am grateful for it more than I can say. You know who you are, and you are in my prayers every day.
Happy Mother's Day.