Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Dear Malan,

The year or two before you were born were pretty rough for me, to say the least. A lot of tough decisions, a lot of heartache.
But maybe you know that, because I'm pretty sure you were there. It felt like you were, through the hardest moments.
It felt like you were, when I met your dad again and things got back on track. You knew what our happy life was going to be like.
Thank you, for hanging in there with me when I couldn't see that.
Malan on her 1st birthday

When you were born my world revolved around you and your tiny hands and your tiny toes and your tiny needs.
I felt purely unselfish, for once. I haven't felt that enough in my life. It is a good feeling. Thanks, babe, for being born.

Thanks for being my little parenting guinea pig, and for handling my motherly missteps so gracefully.
I want most in the world to be a good mother, thank you for helping me work on that.

I hope you know how awesome I think you are.
You are courageous, you are resilient, you are compassionate,
you are responsible, you are loyal, you are older and wiser than your years.

You are so very loved.

Happy Birthday, sweet M.

14 comments:

Katie said...

happy birthday malan! happy malan kate! yeah, aren't you so glad your life is on the right track? (the caleb track) you did good. and i just want to say, your kids are really lucky to have you as their mom. you are so adoring and fun.

Lori said...

happy birthday miss malan. i remember meeting you days after you were born. love you, love your mama.

*** said...

Oh what a gorgeous birthday girl! I love the last pic with her cake, beautiful. CONGRATS on baby girl #4. What a lucky lady to have you as her Mama. Caleb is lucky to be surrounded in his girls in skirts and dresses :)

Andrea said...

Oh Kate you're wonderful!!! I love hearing about these little ones that you have! You're doing such a great job as a mom!!! Love the pictures!! SO fabulous!!!!! Happy birthday Malan and great job on that cake!!! Looks divine!

R~ said...

Kate, Kate... how can I say how your words touch my heart. I sit here teary eyed reading about your love for your daughter and your efforts to be the best mother you can be.

I think it gets my heart because my mother had a lot of characteristics i see in you. She truly, utterly believed in me in a way that no one else has yet to top. Her love was truly, effortlessly unconditional. The older I get and the more people I meet, I realize that not every mother is like this.

I'm thankful for the memories and 26 years I had with her. I promise you, you're setting your girls up for success and self esteem that no one else could provide for them.

What a beautiful letter to Ms. M!

R~

Ashley Whimpey: The One with the Fairy Dust said...

What a sweetheart. Although I haven't really seen Malan since she was a baby, I feel like I know her through your posts. She has such warm eyes, and such a sweet smile. For some reason, her little face makes me want to curl up in a soft blanket and eat chocolate cake. No idea why!! I'm glad she got you through those tough years too. Looks like you have many angels of your own. ;) Happy Birthday Malan!!

olderockhouse said...

Happy birthday to little Malan. How we miss you Mays! Can't wait to be around you more! The girlies miss you so and miss your lovely face and sweet nature. Hugs and kisses to all!

Wendy said...

I'll never forget when Caleb told me he was sure you were my "sister in heaven" :)

Love that Malan! I sure wish I was closer to see her grow up. Virtual xoxo's

Becca said...

You make me teary Kate. Your words and love inspire me to be better. thank you.

Vicky said...

Happy Birthday Malan. x.

Janelle said...

What an adorable big girl you have. Happy birthday to her!

JennyHP said...

Happy Birthday, Malan! October birthdays are the best.

victoria said...

We love you, Malan! What a sweetheart you are. We miss you and hope you are loving Kindergarten. Hope to see you soon!

erin said...

i really liked that. happy birthday, little girl